coming to terms

As much as I loved SC, I can't say I liked myself much.

I often tell people that I'm glad that they never met me when I was in secondary school, because I was just so different back then. I just never realized how much I had changed, until I started trying to reconnect with things I'd left behind, and found out that I cant. And how some good traits of me that I had then have pretty much vanished, as I become a little more selfish with my emotions and my time (which I still can't decide if its a good thing).
But I guess some part of me is glad, because its the sacrifice to get to how far I've come. And I'm proud. Of all the demons I had purged, and all the obstacles I've overcome.

I just wish that happy memories I had of back then weren't so plagued with all my personal troubles. Because I am so grateful of the friends I made along the way, and especially all the friends who had stuck with me since then. If it weren't for them, I don't think I'll be much of a person today.