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So Apropos
Saw death on a sunny snowFor every life, forego the parable. Seek the light, my knees are cold. (Running home, running home) Go find another lover; To bring and- to string along. With all your lies, you're still very lovable. I toured the light, so many foreign roads For Emma, forever ago. |
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what now, santa?
Oh yeah. Happy New Year everyone. This year's new year passed by so quickly that I've hardly had time to digest it. After all, the new year supposed to be this big symbolic time of year that everyone shares, and aims for new beginnings, right? I guess so. Me, however? I've been stuck, rather like being in stasis, limbo, whichever. In case you were wondering, that's the mood I describe when I'm being pessimistic, which in the english language can mean a lack of optimism, in which optimistic thinking refers to looking forward to the future. And during the New Year's Day of 2011, I didn't. And I still don't. This, I guess, can be what Spencer calls a 'lack of motivation'. Though, the remedy for this particular 'lack' is often misinterpretted. I do not think that putting pressure on me twenty-four seven instils in me a feeling of motivation. The last year has been spent fighting that increasing pushing of "why are you not motivated", instead of finding true motivation, and I am sick of it. Sick. Perhaps this year I should follow Maslow's Heirachy of Needs (read here), or most fundamentally, be more conscious of the emotional baggage that I take upon myself. I spend my time worrying that taking the less peaceful road will lead to emotional turmoil on my part. But if I assert myself more carefully, I'll most probably take less upon myself to carry and to accumulate. And feel less like a footrest for people around me. After all remedy rather than cure, right? There are many things and events in 2010 that've left me with a bitter taste in my mouth. In time, they may go away. I hope. Sorry for the bitter post people. Happy New Year, Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday and all that jazz. |