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So Apropos
Saw death on a sunny snowFor every life, forego the parable. Seek the light, my knees are cold. (Running home, running home) Go find another lover; To bring and- to string along. With all your lies, you're still very lovable. I toured the light, so many foreign roads For Emma, forever ago. |
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It is always thoroughly amusing to read through my past blog posts. Things like Evening by the (fish) Pond, my little emo phases, SCGS choir's SYF, or even the books I read. I realized a chunk of my sec 4 bloggings were about Twilight, and how much I don't like Edward Cullen and how Jacob Black is wayyyy better. Life was so much simpler then. So relaxing and calming. Sit home, read books, write little stories. Hahaha I bet NONE OF YOU remembered how tanya died. Here's an excerpt.
LOL. Happy early birthday clar darling. Hopefully one day we can make tanya die again. reaching for the sky-
 Sometimes I'm too much of a loner for my own good. But I'm not. It just ain't my scene. Still.  Come, when the pale moon like a petal to fill the empty space I hold for you
Hehe. And the layer below the layer. Its been a tough time, even if I didn't admit it, so many times. Spence should know, best of all, what I let fester beneath the surface.The reason I'd put this here is that I'd like to thank those who, whether they've realized it or not, have helped me along this. Its a learning process, all this. Every step has been a risk, and I've grown taking these risks, even if I've taken a few cuts and bruises along the way. I'm only human, I've realized. And I'm subject to normal human flaws. Envy, selfishness, pride, ignorance, avarice, and self-deception. I used to be the kind of person who hated these fallibilities, my own humanity becoming the bane of my days. Therefore, I'm grateful for those who praise me beyond these flaws not because they boost my ego, but because they boost the faith in those who believe in me. I'm grateful for those who know my flaws, and overlook them to see the potential in me to support me as I grow. I'm grateful for those who have been patient with my detachment and my silence, and remain my friend today even though I sometimes don't deserve the valuable title of 'friend'. There are so many people around me that have held onto their anger and their pride, screwing themselves over their own problems. These are the people who keep me reminded of who I was, and keep me from slipping back into what I used to be. My friends and family are the ones who remind me that life is worth living more than the way anger lives it. And nothing on earth can convince me otherwise(: You are the most valuable things in my life. And in my dependence, I have learnt the true meaning of being independent. Thank you(: I want you, and no one else
POST ALEVELS. Well, its kind of inaccurate to say so, but hey! I'm playing! And I feel great(: Yesterday was spent pretty much... sleeping and surfing the internet. But slacking made me so happy! I think I was really close to getting sick (knowing my sucky body), but I think the rest really did the trick. I feel awesome! I know people may not understand this, esp people my age, but being at home more these few months also made me realize how much I love my family. They really are the people who stick around through thick and thin, and as much as they drive me NUTS sometimes, they've always done their best to be there for me. And I will always be eternally grateful to them. My little niece, Nita, just cracks me up. She looks like her old (or ageing) man.  My brother claims that THAT LOOK is genetic. My sister and I couldn't stop laughing at this picture! Funny how daughters look so much like their parents, eh? I think she brought out the maternal instincts in me. I absolutely love spending time with her. My sister also came over to make bread with me! It was so fun, and I really missed spending time with her.   Isn't it gorgeous! I ate some for breakfast.  WE MADE BREAD. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. I think I felt more satisfaction from last night's breadmaking escapade than from Alevels. hehehe. Today was spent with Gabby and Wendy, buying prom dresses. THANK YOU SO MUCH for helping me pick mine, you gorgeous darlings! I love spending time with you guys. I also can't wait to meet up with MY old man. I don't care if you keep trying to break up with me, you're doomed to be haunted by my presence. Hee.  (Someone has a new phone! Which somehow fits back into our rather boring colour scheme...) I'm holidaying already
 That's how you make me feel baby! Lol. I'm such a bad Alevel student, I went out with Tanya and Clar today to shop for their stuff (with Spencer alonger me), then tired and wet, Spence and I plonked ourselves into forum Macs, and talked about Economies of Scale and coffee. Oh, and I finally got film for my Diana! But hell if I know how to use it, its tricky as hell. If I survive this (really expensive) roll of film with at least one nice photo, I'll be so grateful (: I need to get myself familiar with my baby, and fast! Sigh case studies tomorrow. <3
Since Alevels are almost over, I'd like to introduce you to my baby, whom I've kept in storage for so long, that it aches all over. Snowcat Edition!  I love you, Diana. I can't wait to make beautiful (stag)nation
 hiding. 5 down, 3 to go. I am so tired. New Desktop!
 This is what I do when I refuse to study.... New desktop background! Note they ALL have guitars. heeheehee completely unintentional. Going clockwise from the top left corner, Kings of Leon, Ethan Boroian, Feist, Jason Mraz, Rachael Yamagata and Damien Rice! On another note, I haven't been studying today. Awwwww. I'm a lazy bum. (P.S. Ethan's a little screwed up, because I accidentally blurred his butt, but I decided not to bother fixing it.) [EDIT]: The Lovely Photographers responsible for the photos. Feist: http://www.flickr.com/photos/yulete/ Jason: http://www.flickr.com/photos/xfdasfads/ Damien: http://www.flickr.com/photos/nrk-p3/ Kings of Leon: http://www.flickr.com/photos/hotcherry/ Rachael: http://www.flickr.com/photos/vulnerablechaos/ Ethan: http://www.flickr.com/photos/mattcrockett/ gamete disease
Playlist of the As1. Woman like a Man by Damien Rice 2. Rootless Tree by Damien Rice 3. Professor by Damien Rice "I was a lover of time and once she was mine 4. Swallowed in the Sea by Coldplay 5. My Junk by Spring Awakening HISTORY, n. An account mostly false, of events mostly unimportant, which are brought about by rulers mostly knaves, and soldiers mostly fools. -thedevil'sdictionary the song that changed my life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuS1cCnG8xc
i love you and I can't wait.
There's what tomorrow? Really? I didn't realize. And the countdown below this ticks away. You cut me down a tree And brought it back to me And that's what made me see Where I was going wrong You put me on a shelf And kept me for yourself I can only blame myself You can only blame me And I could write a song A hundred miles long Well, that's where I belong And you belong with me And I could write it down or spread it all around Get lost and then get found Or swallowed in the sea You put me on a line And hung me out to dry And darling that's when I Decided to go to sea You cut me down to size And opened up my eyes Made me realize What I could not see And I could write a book The one they'll say that shook The world, and then it took It took it back from me And I could write it down Or spread it all around Get lost and then get found And you'll come back to me Not swallowed in the sea And I could write a song A hundred miles long Well, that's where I belong And you belong with me The streets you're walking on A thousand houses long Well, that's where I belong And you belong with me Oh what good is it to live With nothing left to give Forget but not forgive Not loving all you see Are the streets you're walking on A thousand houses long Well that's where I belong And you belong with me Not swallowed in the sea You belong with me Not swallowed in the sea a present
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