to the audience, hello.
Its a little too much, and a little too little.
But its a little everything, if you think about it generally.
Perhaps its these scars that sting so much, that I grow more prideful and demanding when I think of the things I have never gotten. Its become bitter, the meat has gone bad. Too bloody, perhaps. Too raw. Too xin.
Just take me seriously. Look me in the eye and say you respect me. Because I already respect me, and I just want you to be worth my time.

Too Frank?



10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
- haha I saw right past you. Much apologies.
- I owe you lunch.
- No one's ever loved me as much as you have, and no matter how much anyone says they will, they never will. Not as much as you ever did. Thank you.
- I wonder why you ever loved me.
- I may not talk to you anymore, and you may not think I'm much of anything. But I just want to wish you all the best. You've done alot.
- You know more than I realize you do. You once said I was like a mirror to you. I hope it stays that way.
- After much deliberation, I've decided what I ever wanted from you. To love me for who I am, not who I fight to become because I want to earn your respect.
- What happened to us? I missed who we used to be. I guess its my fault. I'm sorry.
- Because of you, I feel like myself again. You gave me hope in myself, and I can never give you back as much as you did for me, whether you know you did or not.
- You're a bit too scary for your own good.

9 things about yourself:
- I like a certain kind of pink.
- If I really don't wanna give up, I won't.
- I'm very sian now.
- I love musicals.
- I want to make videos. Lol.
- I'm female?
- I make friends in odd ways.
- Without studying, I have nothing to do.
- I need to know the next thing I'm going to do most of the time.

8 ways to win your heart:
- listen to me.
- be able to engage in an intellectual conversation.
- Have some sense of EQ.
- Fun(:
- enjoys literature
- flowers? hahah happy flowers.
- surprise me. I dare you.
- This one's a secret. (:

7 things that cross your mind a lot:
- what am i up to today?
- what time is it?
- huh?
- I'm sleepy.
- Have I forgotten something?
- Lets ignore people and stone for a while.
- Mmmm. now thaaat's nice.

6 things you do before you fall asleep:
- think about falling asleep
- will myself to fall asleep
- what did I do today?
- what am I doing tomorrow?
- Hmm... I wonder if he...
- Close my eyes.

5 people who mean a lot:
- haha if you know you're suppose to be here, I'll give you a gold star and a bigo kiss.

4 things you're wearing right now:
- SCGS cotton PE tee
- army print boxer shorts LOL.
- underwear
- my new sunglasses (because they're awesome cool)

3 songs that you listen to often:
- So Contagious, Acceptance
- (enter Anberlin song here)
- Elephants, Rachael Yamagata

2 things you want to do before you die:
- publish a novel
- raise a family.

1 confession:
- I'm scared of people dying.